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[04 Aug 2003|08:30am] |
Hello to everyone who said hi *waves* Well this weekend has been hell... I had to dodge a few people I didn't even want to bother with this weekend. And those damn paparazzi...oh well *rolls eyes*
Sorry I haven't been around much. I've been doing quite a bit of soul searching, I have come to some decisions. We will see if I act on them or not. I'm too tire to write them out...
Freddie... *smirk* sorry I missed ya the other night.. I was away from my computer, reading a new book I got in.
Later all... and as always im me to chat :) SarahMicheleBTVS
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[02 Aug 2003|10:01am] |
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I am tired... just tired...
Spent all day filming the 2003 Teen Choice awards. Sometimes I smile so hard I feel like my face is going to fall off...
If anyone wants to see it, It will be airing on Fox on Aug 6th 8/7pm central time..
later
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| EW! |
[02 Aug 2003|03:33am] |
Freddie = blech.
What Johnny Knoxville said about Milla and JT. So true. *claps for Johnny* What's Milla got going for her other than EVERYONE knows she'll get naked for a role and she fucked a few rockers. Big deal. She's dumb.
New screen name so Freddie can't stalk me: SarahMicheleBTVS
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| Nothing Much... |
[24 Jun 2003|09:40pm] |
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Well I don't have much to say. I got the divorce papers today and signed them. I was going to not sign them so then me and Fred would still be married but Meech and I thought it was too mean. HEHE Well I don't mind, I am happy with my life. I didn't talk to Ash today. I really did want to but I guess he was busy. Fred and I are going to be on TRL next week. UHHHH I don't know what we're going to say. I guess we can't tell everyone about this yet because they'll have a field day! HAHA
I saw that the new quiz that everyone is taking is a slut one. Well I am not going to bother to take it because I know that I am not one. :) I don't care what you people think because I am not, compared to other people at least! HEHE
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[23 Jun 2003|03:44pm] |
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Ashley was just here! Ehhh, it was so much fun. Well we went to the beach and had a blast. Well most of the time I was in the water because he kept pushing me in! HEHE Well that was fun. It wasn't a date or anything but it was a lot of fine. I so am calling him to do something like that again. ;) Now I am going to go and eat my food from In N Out, haha! Where did you ever find this place Ash? LOL
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| My House... |
[23 Jun 2003|12:48pm] |
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Well like I said, I was going to go house shopping today. Well you wouldn't believe it, I found a house that I really liked and just bought it! It's so cute....I took some pictures of it.
( Pictures... )
I talked to Fred a little last night. Not much because I didn't really feel like it....most of the time I was talking. I can't believe that he already moved in with the girl! That's so crazy, can't he wait till the papers are done, we still have about a month till we are "not married".
Well I have to finish packing everything in the house...
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| My New Life... |
[22 Jun 2003|07:51pm] |
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Well I guess since Fred and I are going to go with it I don't know what to say. I don't know why he has to make me feel so bad about it, I mean, geeze, he doesn't have to do that. That shows how much he loves me, that he finds someone to go out with the next day...but if I were to do that I would be called names. Men are so full of it.
Well I am still here in NC. I was thinking about staying here. I am planning on going house shopping this week because I don't like being in a hotel all the time. I guess I am going to look for a house near the beach, and a house with enough rooms if I were to have a child. I am pretty sure that I am going to have one but I am ready. I can do it...*smiles* I am kinnda lonely here. I am planning on buying a puppy or cat to keep me company. I don't want to met guys...I mean, who would want me the way that I have been talked about. I feel like such a horrible person, I am just human but since I am a woman I have to be better or else I am...everything!
I talked to Katie last night. She really helped me cope with everything. She's always there for me...I don't know what I would do without here....*sighs*. *walks to balcony of hotel room* *closes eyes* *takes a deep breathe* This is my first day of my new life. *opens eyes* *smiles*
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| Waste Of My Time |
[21 Jun 2003|10:49pm] |
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I don't like Britt Ayala. I don't like anything about her, I don't want to see her and I sure don't want to say her name again! I hope that she goes somewhere where I'll never have to hear about her ever again! Oh wow, I made this public...call CNN!!! *rolls eyes*
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| Someday We'll Know... |
[21 Jun 2003|09:30pm] |
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I left the house today. I couldn't take it anymore so I came here to Wilmington where I can be alone with my thoughts, the only place that loves me back now. I don't feel like talking to Fred....I don't feel like seeing Fred...I just can't take this! I cried most of the way here, I have still watery eyes...geeze, I can't do this anymore. I can't just do this. I can't just love Fred...he keeps making me love him and then just like that, he brakes my heart. I don't want to divorce because it's sin. We're supposed to stay together till death do us part. I can't just imagine...what if I get pregnant. I don't want to but God has his ways and I trust that he'll do what's right. I pray that if I have a child that Fred wont be around. I don't want to take care of a child with him...I don't know why but to me, I just can't do it. I want to do it myself...*tears run down face* This music...uh...it just brakes my heart! I am listening to the A Walk To Remember soundtrack, and this song... ( Someday We'll Know )...just makes me just tear up so bad...I can't talk to anyone about this...I just can't trust anyone. I don't want to be like this forever...*tears up* I don't want to do this forever...I don't want to be this forever *wipes off tears with tissue*
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[21 Jun 2003|04:09pm] |
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People can't just leave me alone. I didn't mean to smack Fred but he just keep trying to get into me...sorry but I don't feel like talking about it. It's too hard to say in words and it just doesn't feel right. Plus it makes me feel so horrible that you would call me a whore after you said you loved me and you didn't care what people thought about me. That doesn't make me feel any better! My head hurts so much now....I feel like I am going to die!!!
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[20 Jun 2003|10:37am] |
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Ok, last night was one of those nights that you'll never forget. Well I talked to Fred about the whole thing at the party. At first I was like I don't know if I love you and I told him about Milo and stuff. Well I was also talking to Milo too. Well, he was trying to fix our problems. Comes to show that he can't probably because he's a guy. Well then I asked Milo who did he like. I already knew but I wanted to hear him say it. And he's like Aj. I was like totally shocked...I mean hello!!!! And then he's like just because I like/love Aj doesn't mean that I am gay. Can someone here tell me wtf he is because in my book that called being gay. Well anyway, I guess that was the thing I need to get away from him. Well I told Fred everything and I guess we worked it all out. I mean, I don't think I really deserve to be with Freddie after all the things I just did to him, but he wants to stay with me. And it makes me just wanna cry because he really loves me, and even though I told him yesterday I didn't love him, he was there. I don't know...I guess all the love I had for him just came rushing back. I don't think I'll be able to look at him because it just kills me to think that I was about to end my life with the most wonderful guy I have ever met. Ok, I am getting all teary here....
I wanted to say one more thing...Milo, I am not a ho. That's Santa hun, this is the HOE you're looking for and it sure as hell isn't me!
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| Tears..... |
[19 Jun 2003|11:30am] |
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I don't know why but all this feels like ( A Whole New World ) but I don't know what to do....all I want to do is just cry....God, what am I supposed to do??? :( I can't stop crying but when I hear that song I just wonder...this is such a whole new world for me...can I take it?
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| My Name Means... |
[19 Jun 2003|09:59am] |
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| sarah | | Magic Number | 14 | | Job | Porn Star | | Personality | Drifter | | Temperament | Pussy Cat | | Sexual | If I Have To | | Likely To Win | The Booker Prize | | Me - In A Word | Genius | | Colour | | | Brought to you by MemeJack |
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I want to know who made this quiz because I am not a Porn Star!!!!
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| My Lj Name.... |
[19 Jun 2003|09:52am] |
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| prinnieslayer | | Magic Number | 9 | | Job | Conservationist | | Personality | Focussed And Driven | | Temperament | As High As A Very High Kite | | Sexual | Straight | | Likely To Win | A Home Help Badge | | Me - In A Word | Ditsy | | Colour | | | Brought to you by MemeJack |
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[19 Jun 2003|09:29am] |
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What a night last night. I flew from LA to New York just to go to Claires party. HEHE I didn't tell Fred that I was going to be there but I don't care...I wonder what he was doing...But anway, Milo was there and I guess I was the crazy one because I was dancing on him and stuff. But then I got really jealous because Aj came he we stopped....well I drank some drinks...well I drank a lot of drinks and I got half naked and I was like..you know...Well I get on top of Milo (who was naked) and just started kissing him and rubbing him and stuff. I feel like I am such a slut. I just wonder what does Milo think of me...;)
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[18 Jun 2003|07:40pm] |
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Ok, I should calm down some...Well I was you know just sitting here at home watching some TV. Then I hear the phone ring. I spring up because I know that it has to be Fred. Well I answer the phone and it's him. Well we talk and then I can hear someone in the background. Ok, I know that I shouldn't jump in things but I could hear some CHICK in the background saying "Freddie, are you done talking to her, we have to go now". Ok, what would you guys think if you heard that? Well I am going to call my body guard (Tom)and ask him to call up someone in New York to watch Freddie. I don't ever want to spy, but I never know, I mean, who wouldn't want him??? ;) I hope that whomever Tom gets to watch him doesn't find anything bad. EHHH I can't wait till tomorrow...it scares me to think what would I do without him.
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| I Am Here.... |
[18 Jun 2003|09:10am] |
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I just wanted to say that I am here. Sorry that I wasn't here for awhile but that was because me and Fred were on a little vacation in Thailand. It was so beautiful there. I just love all the things there, I really love their flowers. They have these flowers that are like the size of your fist. And they smell like a dream....mmmm....you just take a whiff and you're in a different world. I don't mean like you get high off of it but it smells so good.
Hmmm....not that many people are on AIM right now. I guess I am just going to have to play something else. I would do something with Freddie but he's in New York doing some interviews and crap and then going to see if he can this role in a movie. He doesn't even tell me what the movie is about! I mean, hello, Freddy, I can make you so sleep on the couch whenever I feel like it. HEHE I wouldn't do that to you tough...;)....
( OOC )
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[17 Jun 2003|03:55pm] |
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I need some love. Catch me on AIM: prinnieslayer
Isn't that cute? It matches my journal name. Now FREDDIE NEEDS A JOURNAL!!
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[14 Apr 2003|05:20pm] |
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Oh look...it's my birthday :D
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[11 Apr 2003|03:46pm] |
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Freddie and I talked last night about things and we're much better now. I had to get a few things off my chest. We hardly got to see eachother..I don't know what happened. But now we've fixed our schedules to make it so we can see eachother. *smiles brightly* Did anyone see him on 'The Jamie Kennedy Experiment' last night? I thought it was funny. *laughs* And those poor, innocent people..*laughs again* Okay, enough about me and Freddie. I wanna hear about some of you guys...since I'm never on :x. *giggle*
I'm drinking a huge mountain dew slurpee right now. In about 10 minutes I'll be all hyper and shtuff. It makes me do things..*cracks up* It also makes me have to piss like a million times, but I love it and I will never give it up. You know who I haven't talked to in a long time? JOSIE. You're never on when I am :( So get on damnit. lol. Alright, the mountain dew is starting to kick in and I have to go and relieve myself. Ta Ta. *waves and blows some kisses*
xoxo
Sarah
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